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Kekvit Irae thought this was the Ricky Martin Fan Club Forum and wrote:Manic Depressive
Suicidal
ADD
Low self-esteem
No driver's license
No job
No formal education outside of college
No girlfriend
No chance of rejoining the Army
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Lets see,
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i only work when thers a convention, like once evry 1/2months
still in highschool
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never bean in the army(keep in mind, still in high school
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I'm rather closed in and try my best to put a nice, happy front so noone suspects anything, trying to make people think I am just a laid back person. Atleast I think I do. In actuality, I am not that, quite the opposite really. I only tell a very select group of people my real feelings on matters. Everything else is tainted with the fact I dont want people to worry about me. I lie to myself alot about things that bother me, my laziness attributes alot to that. I'm rather abrassive toward people that try to pull my feelings from me. I tend to bury myself in something when things go wrong, for the most part that is EQ. My work bores me now, I'm 19 and already frustrated with the fact I have to work 8+ hours a day, with only weekends and holidays off. I want my Summer Vacation back.
And there is some other stuff in there too.
-I come to hate people far too easily. Some people I just see for the first time and despise them before they even open their mouths.
-Sometimes, I get extremely sarcastic and rude. I blame this on my friends. We, as teenage boys, enjoy picking on each other. I suppose I don't know when to turn the wit off.
-When angry, frustrated, or otherwise disgruntled, I get very...very...violent. This is something I would like to change.
-I, like all good people, tend to stick my foot in my mouth occasionally.
But, I'm not at all upset, because I know that if I'm not satisfied with something, then I can change it. 
And, I don't care what you people say, you can do the same.
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Faelynn LeAndris wrote:
Low Self Esteem.Some time too nice for my own good.
Hold things in WAY too much.
And I am too tolerant.
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Synjari wrote:
I know I am overweight (medically speaking I definitely am and I'm slowly trying to take steps towards remedying that)I feel alone alot of the times IRL.. but because of the lack of friends I have in general.. most of my social life has been gotten from online.. (I met Kelveron over on Peachis' boards, and my last serious boyfriend in the online RPG I used to play before EQ.)
I cant stand hypocrites.. I hate myself when I find myself being one. (Gah! This one applies to me too and I HATE when I find myself doing this.)
I am too nice for my own good. I get burned by alot of people for it because I get taken advantage of. I believe in the goodness of people far too easily. Although, once someone throws that trust out the door.. it takes FOREVER to get back into good light as far as I go(If I am not already holding a nasty grudge against a person.. in that case most times forgiveness isnt an option for me.. yes I am a totally stubborn bitch). Not that my opinion of people matters to others.. but this is just as far as I am concerned. (Hmm, nothing really to change here. You said it far better than I could have, I think.)
I think out of everyone I've ever known, my parents included, Kelveron is the only person that I have held nothing back from. I'm so terrified of anything even remotely smacking of confrontation that I rarely speak up for myself or tell someone when they've hurt me. I usually agree with whatever anyone says, just so I don't have to disagree and possibly get into an argument. And somehow, I've never felt that defense mechanism kick into play with Kelv. I don't think I have a single secret that I've kept from him. (Now, that doesn't mean he knows EVERYTHING about me, because then where's the excitement in living together. But there's nothing I'm keeping purposefully hidden from him.)
Katjya Sylvertongue
Tarissa Treerunner 
Entertain Me!
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Kel had this to say about Reading Rainbow:
Evidently my actual problem is that I'm secretly Mort's evil twin...
You are? 
It's sort of like this, "When a Japanese sword maker creates a sword of exceptional quality, he always makes an exact duplicate, to which the negative force is transferred. In order to make a sword possesing the force of good, the evil one must also be created and forever sealed away."(100 Super Otaku points for figuring out which anime that's from; and yes, you may consider it lame, but it's a good quote.)
I sort of try to express this by my creation of Cthon Deathshadow in my RP stories, Azrael and Cthon sort of mirror my internal conflict. The only trouble was back in high school, the ole pressure cooker was near to going off, but luckily, I have it under control now(I think).
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Mortious Shadowstalker had this to say about Jimmy Carter:
You are?
Hmm... and KaLourien is mine... be scared.
I worry too much.
I care too much about the wrong things.
I let myself get carried away in emotion.
I get jealous when I shouldn't.
I make myself sick sometimes dwelling on things.
... to name a few.
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Peachis had this to say about Robocop:
My Problem(s):I worry too much.
I let myself get carried away in emotion.
I make myself sick sometimes dwelling on things.
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Yeah those apply to me too sometimes.
/hugs Peachy
