you might be suprised at how after taking a look at your emotional state what the answer is.
now, don't read this post and respond to it with the first thing that pops into your head. think about it for a bit and really look into yourself to see how you REALLY feel.
i know that i did this a couple months ago and it has really changed my outlook on life. once one finally realizes that the past is just that, the past, then it allows your mind to open up to what's really important, the present.
isn't it funny how the hardest thing to think about is how you are feeling right this moment, right now? you can predict what you're going to feel like tommorow when your feet hit the floor after rolling out of bed and it's even easier to dwell in the past; whether that past was good or bad. one thing i've noticed through my life is how hard it is to really feel how you are right now, in the present. yet, once you can do this i've found that it is easier to deal with things.
when i finally looked deep into myself and found that in truth i really WAS happy with my life it made things alot easier to deal with. my life will be coming to it's first of hopefully many peaks within the next 8 months, and i feel ready for it now.
on Feb 11, 2002 i will be 16. on that day i will become a liscensed driver, enter the last week of High School before i graduate, and i will have reached a point in my life where unlike any other time before then i will be free to do as i bloody well want to.
five months ago i looked on this date with trepidation and fear. now i look onto this date eagerly and truely filled with joy at all the possibilities that will be before me.
i have come to the conclusion that my life up to today has had meaning, i have made a difference in this world and it has been a decidedly good one. i now feel secure to finally grow and mature again, and this time on my OWN terms. i am prepared for whatever life may bring and not only that, but i'll be able to finally relish new experiences and feelings without the wieght of my past dragging me down and soiling them.
i haven't been a "child" in mind nor emotion since i was 10 years old. now i finally feel like i'm getting bits of what i missed in my "childhood" back. not in terms of frolicking in a sand box with friends, but in the fact that i am truely content with my life to this point and that NO ONE in this world can tell me otherwise. no i am finally rid of all the saddness and despair of my life before now and i can get on with it.
Ladies and Gentlemen, i am 15 years old and i can say with no doubt whatsoever in my heart that i am indeed happy and content with my life.
i just hope more people will find that they can answer my question with an affirmative as well. and unlike before, i have realized that even if they cannot, then this does not put i shine on MY life. i will rise up further than i have already no matter who tries to drag me down.
IE: Getting a job, met someone, and whatnot.
life thats all that matters
As a neophyte writer, I'm constantly living stories in my head. Reality pales in comparison to what I imagine, what I dream.
I'd give up my place in this life to be a commoner in a fantasy reality.
It isnt so much about being happy with your life. Its more about accepting it and finding joy it in.
Ferrel!
Happy now? No, far too many worries, fears, stresses, desires, wants and needs to be happy right now. Content now? Yes, my life is what I have made of it, with some help from other's influences. It isn't what I dreamed it would be at this point in my life, but it isn't a bad place to be either.
I have two wonderful children who are the world to me and I want to do my best to take care of them. For me to do this I have to take some risks and make some BIG changes in my immediate future, and frankly it scares the hell out of me.
Would I change one bit of it? Not on your life. [ 10-02-2001: Message edited by: Kanid ]
Me = happy.
Everything else falls into place after you find someone whom you truly care about. Not just someone whom you have teh hawt s3xx0r with.
Under capitalism, man exploits man. Under communism, it's just the opposite. - John Kenneth Galbraith
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Ferrel had this to say about Duck Tales:
As a neophyte writer, I'm constantly living stories in my head. Reality pales in comparison to what I imagine, what I dream.
Tell me about it..
I've got an imagination that makes children green with envy, but I just can't write or draw worth a damn. Everything sounds great in my head, but if I put it down on footnotes or a rough sketch, it looks/reads horrible.
Ah well.. Gonna head off to bed. 'Night all. [ 10-02-2001: Message edited by: Demitri ]
But there's a few special people in my life that make it tolerable [ 10-02-2001: Message edited by: Khyron ]
I am being controlled 24/7, no matter what i am doing. I am depressed...I need a vacation. one with just me.
"Don't want to sound like a fanboy, but I am with you. I'll buy it for sure, it's just a matter of for how long I will be playing it..."
- Silvast, Battle.net forums
Content? Sure. I'll call it that. I'm, well... I don't feel like I'm anything important yet, heh, I'm still building that. If anything, I feel like a spring that's being coiled up and ready to sproing. I'm getting impatient, as all springs do, wanting to sproing right now but knowing that if I do, it'll be less than what it could be. And I'm being confusing again, aren't I?
Content... yeah, I'm content. Happy? Nope. But, well, this is gonna sound nuts, but I feel I'm close to it. Sorta like that I'm a novel being read, and I'm juuuuust before the climax right now. I know something big's gonna happen. I know I'm gonna fight the bad guy and win the beautiful prince and ride off into the sunset to live my happily ever after. But right now, things are... coming together, coming apart. I'm not happy. But I'm so damn close it's hard to wait.
I'm 16 years old. I've lived what some people might call a waste. Wasted my luck, wasted my friends, my education, my years. But... it hasn't been. If you look at it superficially, I'm a fool, both for not noticing the tremendous luck, the fortune I have, hell, for just being born in Canada and not some Third World country, for being able to afford and live as I do, for having the luxury AND the right to complain about it, god damn it. But I consider nothing a waste, not now. Not even those three years of self-destroying hell I've been through. I'm 16 years old and I feel a hundred.
I'm gonna write a book. Not just one, many. I'm gonna get my name known and my work read and my art seen and my voice heard. I'm not happy. But I'm going to be. I'm slowly moving towards that climax, and I'm ready to earn my happily ever after. I'm armed with luck, with friends, heh, with all the spoils of a wasted life (all of this for you...). With budding self-esteem. With a newborn ego. I'm 16 years old and ready to fight my own private wars.
No, I'm not happy. But I'm gonna be.
However, I am not happy, which is not right for me. I have attained my own personal nervana by understanding that the simple things in life are the big things and the small things are the complex things in life. My mind is in a peaceful state.
Therefore, I am happy, I am at peace.
I'm in a good relationship, with a man that loves me dearly. I'm in school as I've wanted to be, and really doing something with my life now, rather than just slumming it like I was before. I work a lot, and hard, and I'm glad for the chance to do what I do.
So yeah, I'm definitely happy. I may not have everything I could desire in life just yet, but I will eventually.
Lyinar Ka`Bael, Piney Fresh Druidess - Luclin
Most of the time, I forget and let the worries I allways have take over.
However, I also like playing the petty martyr, so a perfect life is not for me.
But Gee, this was a very excelent post, and it's a good one to have here.
But that's me. I'm sure some people would be perfectly happy to have my life.
Your life is what you make of it, if you're unhappy with the way things are, then you need to make the effort to change it. Not always the easiest thing to do, but if you ever want to be content, that's what you have to do.
-Tok
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Geeorn stumbled drunkenly to the keyboard and typed:
i mean stop and think about it. are you REALLY happy with your life to this date?
Yes, Yes I am.
Totally naked! Isn't that a hoot?
Special points to whoever knows where that is from.
October 2001: I am happy, yes. I am content, yes. I am no longer alone. Peers have begun to mature as I have and no longer resort to cruel words. Family is still morons, who cares. I have a fiancé...a soulmate. Not out of despiration, no. Someone I can connect with....a feeling everything is right, when we're together. This has brought me hope that perhaps, there is something good about this world that we live in...the ability to love another.
The sad part is that I need just the things you said not to mention to make it better 
(money, a good deal of it - moving back to the states doesn't come cheap *mrfl*)
God loves me.
I am happy.
I just want a girlfriend.
Except for the whole living in a van down by the river thing, I am doing well!
Thinking about your posts
(and billing you for it) since 2001
No, I never became any of those things I wanted to be when I was in school. I never became a journalist/astronaut/astronomer/novellist/etc, but I'm happy with what I am.
Of course, I'll well beyond the teenage angst years. Being in high school as the unpopular nerdy kid was hell, and you couldn't pay me to do it again.
I think the thing that makes me happiest with my life is the fact that I haven't felt I've compromised myself or become some unwilling tool. I'm me, I belong to me, I make my own decisions, and if I don't like something I don't DO it. It's a freedom that comes from age...
/plucks out grey hairs ;(
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JooJooFlop thought this was the Ricky Martin Fan Club Forum and wrote:
I'm naked, clueless and feeling gooooood!Totally naked! Isn't that a hoot?
Special points to whoever knows where that is from.
That would be Ratbert, from Dilbert (the comic strip), talking about Dilbert's frustration with a broken computer, I think.
Used to have it pinned to my wall.
The big difference is that after a long time I've got somebody that I am interested in and care about and, surprising, she seems to feel the same way about me. We're still progressing quite nicely through the "getting to know you" stage and asking lots of questions about each other.
Truly happy? No. But I'm a damnsight happier than I've been in a while and for now, that's fine by me. Life's supposed to be a work in progress any way.
Short reply: Not overall, no.
