Summer 2001 - I stayed at my friends house where I used to live all the time. I realized just how good friends they where, how good my life was, and how much I ment to someone. She has completly changed my life.
Now - Everything is SUPER. Even if I don't live in the same town as everyone I care about. I see her almost every weekend and we have fun, and that's all that matters.
In the past, I was rarely ever happy, I didn't even feel alive. I took challenging courses and got decent grades, but I never felt I measured up to anybody. Only had a few friends, no girlfriend, and I had 13+ years of being made fun of, beaten up for 7 years, and the lowest kid on the totem pole for 8 years. But that was before college. I never felt like killing myself though, because despite all the shit that goes down on my life, I'm still pathetically an optimist, and I felt that it would be the ulimate failure if I ended my life. It would have been the ultimate betrayal of myself, when I had experienced so much from others. I wasn't willing to do that to myself, I had gotten enough abuse already.
Now I see that my waiting has paid off. "It's all about what you want, when you can get what you need, but you're always going to get what you deserve." (Ten points if you know where that lyric came from) If you work for it, everyone can find something that will make them happy. The teenage years are dark to be sure, when popularity rules and you can't be yourself, but when you become an adult, you'll be able to find the slot where you finally fit in. Despite the fact that there's many horrors of adult life waiting for you, there's innumerable joys as well.
Getting a job, making lots(or little) money, finding the right person for you, having and raising kids, getting grandkids, making many achievements in the field of your choosing, watching history in the making and watching it being put into textbooks...I have yet to do these things, but that's what my grandpa always said made him happy, and he went through World War II and was there at Pearl Harbor. Coming from what would seem to be the darkest path, he's found his way to the light at near the end of his life. You can too. Bonne Chance!
-Azrael
HA this life yeah right it is worse than any hell I could think of I WOULD RATHER SWIM IN A LAKE OF MOLTEN LAVA FEELING THE BURNING SEAR OF MY FLESH forever, then say for one moment I am happy here.
I accept that I am alive and am
So on that note I do the best I can and still get yellled at for it because I make others who do no job or half assed jobs look like they really are STUPID. I despise a lie and allways will tell the truth when asked a question I just dont "volunteer" information. There is a diffrence between lying and volunteering information.
If you ask me a question I will answer that question and that question only nothing more nothing less.
Happy is not what anyone is at all if they think they are then they are not looking at all that is going on and or have shared in the verant wacky "everything s fine our fans love us" weed. Life is life NOONE IS HAPPY noone.
We are all alone and loathing it... look at all the children without parents or single parents, it is like people have to quantify thier exsistence with loveless sex or life is nothing. Sex is not life I dont think true love exists anymore. It died the day common sense was taking out back and beating to death along with truth and freedom. We all live in a dictatorship and just think we are free... when we are not.. :/ :/ :?
"Happiness is what you make it be happy you are alive and are in good health. I AM"
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We are all alone and loathing it...
Um, I may not be amazingly happy with my life overall, but I am very happy with my girlfriend, and not alone at all.
Also just a thought, but if you're so very unhappy Wachuchuu, then perhaps nobody really wants to be around you for very long and this in turns leaves you alone.
Yes, I am just an AI program that spews semi-related quotes and references. So what?
I am sorry if what i said is upsetting but if you do look at the whole thing (the entire earth) we are the titanis int a galaxy all alone and we are fu****g things up royally and not caring. Life was created for us to live forever and we live it as if we only have 50 years here not worrying about if i polute this or destroy that how it affects the planet in the long run. We live in a GIVEME GIVEME GIVE NOW NOW NOW NOW MINE MINE ME ME ME society and wonder why the world is in the pit of hell it is now.
I am saying if you took one minute to see the hell on earth that exists you wouldnt be as happy as you are. I respect women and lavish compliments on them,but i am told that i am a brown noser or whipped. NO i love women for thier grace and bueaty, not as a sex toy most men see them as. Women are objects and sold as slaves in some countries. In others they are unwanted and orphaned or killed.
Every fing conversation I have had with anyone older mentions milk and tasting the cow or shoes and trying them on. We dont get married for love anymore, it is because most people dont want to be alone.
So they stay in a shitty relationship or get involved in a unstable relationship knowing (deep down inside) they will be misreable. PEOPLE are so scared of being alone they would rather be with a di#$ or a bi#$% then be alone. Alone is good alone is fun learn to deal with it mature then get married and life would be better.
I could go on and on forever, But i digress I am sorry I ever opened my mouth. I will shut up now. 
Have a good day and SMILE
"Happiness is what you make it be happy you are alive and are in good health. I AM"
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Wachuchuu had this to say about Optimus Prime:
*points at sig**HA this life yeah right it is worse than any hell I could think of I WOULD RATHER SWIM IN A LAKE OF MOLTEN LAVA FEELING THE BURNING SEAR OF MY FLESH forever, then say for one moment I am happy here.
I accept that I am alive and am
1. to smart to just die
2. I know suicide is the ecscape of the retarted, stupid, weak minded, and lame
3.think that since I am alive I have to do my best
4. know that everything I do reflects meSo on that note I do the best I can and still get yellled at for it because I make others who do no job or half assed jobs look like they really are STUPID. I despise a lie and allways will tell the truth when asked a question I just dont "volunteer" information. There is a diffrence between lying and volunteering information.
If you ask me a question I will answer that question and that question only nothing more nothing less.
Happy is not what anyone is at all if they think they are then they are not looking at all that is going on and or have shared in the verant wacky "everything s fine our fans love us" weed. Life is life NOONE IS HAPPY noone.
We are all alone and loathing it... look at all the children without parents or single parents, it is like people have to quantify thier exsistence with loveless sex or life is nothing. Sex is not life I dont think true love exists anymore. It died the day common sense was taking out back and beating to death along with truth and freedom. We all live in a dictatorship and just think we are free... when we are not.. :/ :/ :?
Refer yourself to my previous post lest I refer my foot to your ass 
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Am I happy? Yes. However, most everyone has a sadist and depressed view on the world, so I must be lying. Therefore I mustn't be happy, and everything is once again right.
However, I am not happy, which is not right for me. I have attained my own personal nervana by understanding that the simple things in life are the big things and the small things are the complex things in life. My mind is in a peaceful state.
Therefore, I am happy, I am at peace."
When I'm in school, no.
When I'm at home, yes.
When I'm with my friends, I can't find sadness.
But as Ferrel said, I would give anytihng to be a commoner in one of my fantasy worlds. Mainly because they seem to live the longest.
I think I'll probably end up pretty happy as a well-paid person who enjoys their job, but as for right now, everything just feels same ol same ol.
Yes, that's right, hot live sex!Then there's another part that isn't quite so great.
x_X
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Wachuchuu said:
SEX rules all when it shouldnt. I mean how can you want something you never had?? how can you like something youa re only told is good??<SNIP>
I respect women and lavish compliments on them,but i am told that i am a brown noser or whipped. NO i love women for thier grace and bueaty, not as a sex toy most men see them as. Women are objects and sold as slaves in some countries. In others they are unwanted and orphaned or killed.
how does sex even factor into all of this? it appears that considering your conclusion in your first post and the fact that half your second seemed to revolve around sex and how women are treated that you have something else on your mind.
anyways, aside from that i also take a wee bit 'o offense at that comment you made about the "poor children with single parents." my father's been dead since i was 6 years old. however i don't think this qualifies me under the "poor poor children who have been ruined by my parent's 'appetites'" category. just for a side note, my best friend is the son of a "singal mother" albeit by divorce and not death. i dunno, but he doesn't seem to be the least bit of the "poor poor child" either.
i also note your many many referenses to "hell on earth." i really have no idea how you can justify this one. it seemed that your basis for this paticular claim was how humans are the "titans in a galaxy all alone and we are fucking things up royally and not caring." all religious references and beliefs on alien life aside, how can you in your right mind say that no one cares about our planet? i dunna wanna get off the topic so i'll end this line of thought here.
now, onto some of your more insulting lines. "Happy is not what anyone is at all if they think they are then they are not looking at all that is going on and or have shared in the verant wacky 'everything s fine our fans love us' weed. Life is life NOONE IS HAPPY noone.," is what i believe you siad in your first post. now, many here have voiced that they are not in fact happy with thier lives but most, from the time that i've known them, belive that there is at least some kind of POSSIBILITY for peace and happiness within thier lives. you however not only disagree with that but you also intimated that those of us who ARE happy have our heads up our asses and think it smells like a rose.
it's kinda hard NOT to take it badly when you describe those of us who are happy in relation to Verant. Maradon can write you an essay on why relating anyone to Verant is the highest insult in the land around these parts.
also back to my point, snipping away your mini-quote in the above line reveals "Shared in the Verant Wacky Weed." so yes actually, i do belive you DID just call me a stoner.
now that i'm done calling you out, i'll get on with my point. you sir, are a curmudgeon and a rogue. you come into my thread, which i started in the spirit of true joy at the greatest epiphany of my life, and ruined it by your rampant proclamations that those of us who are happy are stoners. and, by context with your other two posts, treat women poorly and use them only for sex toys, enjoy fucking our dear ol' Mummy Earth, and seem to rather enjoy the "spiraling firepoll to Hell."
In the words of my dearest friend Devin i would like to say to you, "GET OFF MY LAWN PUNK!" [ 10-03-2001: Message edited by: Geeorn ]
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Kloie had this to say about John Romero:
There's one aspect of my life that I am....overjoyed with.
Pesco sniffles.
It is so kind of you to say such things about me Kloie. I feel so special. I LOVE YOU TOO KWOY!
Pesco gives Kloie a Big Bubba Hug!
P.S. Excuse my ego please 
...pwned
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Pesco had this to say about Matthew Broderick:
It is so kind of you to say such things about me Kloie.
No comment. @_@
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Demitri impressed everyone with:
In the words of so many:...pwned
How do you pronounce that?
I say "pwooned"
I'd have replied in similar fashion, but I couldn't decipher the IdiotSpeak.
Lyinar Ka`Bael, Piney Fresh Druidess - Luclin
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Kloie had this to say about Cuba:
No comment. @_@
Pesco ruffles Kloie's hair.
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JooJooFlop had this to say about Captain Planet:
How do you pronounce that?I say "pwooned"
Pound, or pwooned. Depends on what frame of mind I'm in.
I actually looked at my post and read it as if i didnt type it, I see where and what I said was very offensive. I regret it and promise it will never happen again.
Now on to happieness, I am happy I have my family including my dad(mom died 6 years ago) and I have them to keep me in line. I enjoy what I am doing now but want to learn more and grow as a person(yes i still do not know who i am but i am looking).
I thank you for setting me straight I was waaaay of base on both those posts. I sometimes say things that I do not mean at all. It still is no excuse, and should not have happened. I will start acting more like a real person.
I am truly regretful and wish only for you to forgive me.
"Happiness is what you make it be happy you are alive and are in good health. I AM"
I'm going to a new school, and its wonderful.
I find myself getting excited over meeting new people, and being more outgoing. I've always wanted to be more outgoing.
I've lost a few friends, which is sad, but found more along the way.
Relationship's shaping up. We had a nice conversation today during lunch.
I'm not afraid to be my self. This, in and of it self, is wonderful. I'm too a point, where I don't think about how I act, how I re-act, and how I am. I just be myself.
Overall, I love my life. Worried a bit for my future, but I can fix it.
"Yesterday's the past, tomorrow's the future, todays a present, now open your gift."
Eh, I guesws it's okay...
I have extremely low self esteem, and should be more outgoing...
I have a few good friends, and a few people I wish I could live wihtout. My family is fine, except for my stupid brother...
