This is the last fucking straw on my pile of shit. My mother is fucking insane and called me last night and was talking about how she was going to probably get out tomorrow or tuesday. My ex fucking dumped me for a co-worker who got canned, and writes me from boot camp telling me how she loves me and misses me and wishes we could be together again.
And now my boss who promised me he wouldn't fire me because of all the shit that I did for him to keep shit running smoothly insults me more than firing me would have.
So much for my dreams of having a motorcycle, so much for me buying shit for myself, so much for me fixing my fucking car.
God damnit this year sucks hard already.
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Azakias thought about the meaning of life:
I cant give you much advice, except on the boot camp thing. I wouldnt believe it if I were you. Boot camp is a place that just fucks with your mind for 2 months straight. She's just wanting something familiar to cling to, and you happen to be it.
3 for the Marines. She could fucking cling to her new fiance, after she put her last one out in the cold after 9 months of fucking dedication. I don't even want to talk to her any more. She fucking cheated on me twice, lied to me me, and pitched a fit anytime I didn't want to shell out for some frivoulus little thing.
It's just so much shit going bad in my life right now, this tops it off. I busted my ass for them for two months strait. I did everything they wanted, and then some. I didn't fuck up anything, and this is how they fucking repay me. They kept two complete fucking screw ups instead of giving me more hours.
I'll start looking for another job. It sucks because no one is going to be hiring for anything I'm really qualified for, because the season is over now. I'm a high school student, and every place I'll be looking for a job from will have just fired people like me.
And now as I have been typing this, my mother called. She wants someone to buy her a Greyhound ticket to get back down to the valley. I hope to all things holy that she hasn't been released, because I know she isn't fucking ready. She thinks the whole matter of her having been committed was insulting because she was perfectly fine.
Ugh.
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BetaTested's unholy Backstreet Boys obsession manifested in:
God damnit this year sucks hard already.
After all you said, it would appear that there is no where for your life to go but up! 
Everyone goes through a very trying time in their lives at one point. Maybe this is your chance to show all these forces against you what you are made of. Perhaps it is better for you to look at all these terrible things as obstacles and when you overcome them, you win.
Make it a game... it would help if you play competative sports.
I know looking at life as if it were a game isn't something you want to hear right now, but maybe looking at all this from a different prospective might help you cope with all of it.
Good luck with everything though.
