Kasey Chambers - Not Pretty Enough
Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me
I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's
real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can
Pved and I...
We're done.
It's too far, and I spend WAY to much time at school, and work.
It's my fault, because other things in my life have taken prescedense, and I can't deal with the distance, and the guilt.
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This one time, at Gikkwiny camp:
Abbi...Pved and I...
We're done.
It's too far, and I spend WAY to much time at school, and work.
It's my fault, because other things in my life have taken prescedense, and I can't deal with the distance, and the guilt.
Now get that pretty face and hair up and get happy! On the double! With mayo and whipped cream!
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Lazzay had this to say about Matthew Broderick:
I wuv you Gikk!Now get that pretty face and hair up and get happy! On the double! With mayo and whipped cream!
Ewwww.
But ok!
I looked purdy today. Yay.
We got together on the 17th of November, 2001. She left me on the 4th of October, 2002.
I love her so very dearly, and I want nothing more than her back. But I suppose she's right.. we do have to 'take a break', at least for now.
*needs a hug.*
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Dr. Pvednes, PhD thought about the meaning of life:
*sighs*We got together on the 17th of November, 2001. She left me on the 4th of October, 2002.
I love her so very dearly, and I want nothing more than her back. But I suppose she's right.. we do have to 'take a break', at least for now.
*needs a hug.*
*has a panic attak and feels like I'm gouing to throw up. Yay!*
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Nobody really understood why Dr. Pvednes, PhD wrote:
*needs a hug.*[/color]
Hrm. Why not.
*hugs Pved*
Feel better? I don't. 
heheh
How sadf.
* cherishes tonight's good-night phone call from another Amanda even more.
I'm sorry... *holds you both*
If you are on my firends list, read my livejournal.
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Gikkwiny's unholy Backstreet Boys obsession manifested in:
If you are on my firends list, read my livejournal.
Maybe I ought to update my LJ more often...
I can't remember if you added me to yours or not... :\
... Well, my life right now is shit.
I got back from Las Vegas, seeing two of the poeple I care very much about get hitched, and had the time of my life.
I come home, and what do I behold, but my mother and sister. My mother "wishes she had never had children, and that I would go to hell". All of this because I said I want to move out.
I don't know weather I want to move out on Christmas break (I doubt I have the money) or summer break. But I have to move out. I'm not happy here.
My sister steals my things, all the time. When she said that she wouldn't take any more of myfood... well, I came back, and EVERYTHING I had left was gone.
no respect for me, or my property.
I'm just trying to figure out how to survive in the meantime, without flipping the fuck out.
Help?
That is, unbelievably horrible...
You go out, intent on getting thinner, and buy lots of healthy food with your own money, that you worked damn hard for..
AND YOUR SISTER EATS IT? .. Worse yet, there's other food in the house, but yours is instant, so she takes that instead.. and without asking you, either?
..
For this alone, your sister deserves to rot in hell, permanently stationed mere inches from the reach of the most delicious food ever imagineable.
I understand about long distance relationships. They are difficult. But I assure you they are worth it.
You are both so young still. And you have your whole lifes ahead of you. If nothing else Gikk, let Pved be there for you. I do not mean to promise him anything. But you do have someone that genuinely cares about you and at least you can talk to.
I mean especially with your family and the lack of even basic respect there.
I like you both. And I think it is sad that you don't at least seem to have a friendship right now.
I am not telling you what to do. Please don't think I am. I am just saying don't throw it all away because of the distance.
Now I know I don't know the entire story. Nor do I intend on changing how either of you feel. But from what has been posted publicly it seems as if you are both not happy with breaking up either.
I wish you both happiness and hope this works out for you.
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Genericgirl said this about your mom:
I like you both. And I think it is sad that you don't at least seem to have a friendship right now.
Actually we most certainly do. *hugs Gen*
My Life
by Billy Joel
Got a call from an old friend
We used to be real close
Said he couldn't go on the American way
Closed the shop, sold the house
Bought a ticket to the West Coast
Now he gives them a stand-up routine in L.A.
I don't need you to worry for me cause I'm alright
I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, and leave me alone
I never said you had to offer me a second chance
I never said I was a victim of circumstance
I still belong, don't get me wrong
And you can speak your mind
But not on my time
They will tell you you can't sleep alone
In a strange place
Then they'll tell you you can't sleep
With somebody else
BUt sooner or later you lseep
In your own space
Either way it's okay
You wake up with yourself
I don't need you to worry for me cause I'm alright
I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, and leave me alone
In the sense that she was getting control of her problems with her family.
Certainly never expected you all to break up. Hope you continue to stay close
sigpic courtesy of This Guy, original modified by me
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Gikkwiny's account was hax0red to write:
From my livejournal:... Well, my life right now is shit.
I got back from Las Vegas, seeing two of the poeple I care very much about get hitched, and had the time of my life.
I come home, and what do I behold, but my mother and sister. My mother "wishes she had never had children, and that I would go to hell". All of this because I said I want to move out.
I don't know weather I want to move out on Christmas break (I doubt I have the money) or summer break. But I have to move out. I'm not happy here.
My sister steals my things, all the time. When she said that she wouldn't take any more of myfood... well, I came back, and EVERYTHING I had left was gone.
no respect for me, or my property.
I'm just trying to figure out how to survive in the meantime, without flipping the fuck out.
Help?
*huggles Gikky* *hugs Pved*
I'm sorry to hear about you two. I've been in the same situation, mind you, now I can drive to see this girl, but she's either attached or not wanting to date people.
I agree with Gen, stay friends and see how things go in the future. Things can change
Now...about your sister...
I think I need to drive myself down to Ohio and lay a good corrective beating on your sister. Gimme a weekend and a tazer and I should be able to straighten her out.
/evildrlaugh
the world is a big place to a people so small, but it's really not large enough to justify this.
sometimes you just have to ask if it's worth it. because if you're trying not to hurt him, you already have.
sorry...beyond this, i'll stay out of other people's lives...but i wish you both good luck.
I've already gone through the whole "Shouldn't I be -trying- to get this to work, instead of letting it die?" thing.
Thing is, I need someone close to me right now. Chris' and my relationship is not "on the rocks" as of right now, it's over.
Maybe -maybe- when we are both older and have more money and more time, we can give it another shot.
We are still friends.
I will continue to carry that special space in my heart for him.
HOWEVER-
a relationship where your main feeling is guilt that you are never there is -not- a good one.
Gikk, have you thought about sharing an apartment with a roommate? It certainly sounds like it'd be a better situation than you're in now. It might not be perfect, but usually when people are roommates, they make a bit of extra effort to respect the person who is paying half the rent!
As for the long distance relationships, they ARE hard. Very hard. Be friends, enjoy the friendship, and maybe something can happen in the future - there's no need to rush it.
Seriously, that does suck; but opportunities will come along you just have to be ready.
And you could always move up here and we could share an apartment or somesuch. 
There are places I'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more
Love you Gikky.
However, fate does not. 
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A sleep deprived Gikkwiny stammered:
Ok.I've already gone through the whole "Shouldn't I be -trying- to get this to work, instead of letting it die?" thing.
Thing is, I need someone close to me right now. Chris' and my relationship is not "on the rocks" as of right now, it's over.
Maybe -maybe- when we are both older and have more money and more time, we can give it another shot.
We are still friends.
I will continue to carry that special space in my heart for him.
HOWEVER-
a relationship where your main feeling is guilt that you are never there is -not- a good one.
I agree Gikk, I am glad you are still friends. I do think that love is worth making an effort for. But maybe you are not ready for that at this time in your life. It is not a bad thing.
Don't feel bad or guilty that it is over. Be happy that it happened to begin with.
Many hugs for you both. ::::::hugs::::::
