I left work a few hours early, I couldn't keep my mind on anything. I keep playing stuff over in my head...the call in the morning. Rushing to get to where he was. It was a day like today, kind of wet and dreary. And cold. Very cold.
I went to my Uncle's when I left work, I wanted to see if he wanted to ride with me to the cemetery. He was busy with work, and couldn't get away. I stayed around and watched TV for a little while, to take my mind off things. Then I drove up there by myself.
Someone had been there before me, I think it was my step-mom and step-sister. They left a dozen roses on his grave...Yellow Roses of Texas. I sat down and talked to him for awhile. My jeans got muddy, but I don't really mind. I miss him...
Anyway, I'm just sitting here at home now, I have to go to class soon. I have a big test today, I just hope I can keep my mind on things. Maybe they'll let us go after the test and I won't have to stay long. I'm just not in the mood to deal with anything right now.
Okay, I feel better now. I just had to get my thoughts out somewhere...
-Tok
I don't really know what to say.
Hope you feel better soon
Ka-bump.
*Hugs Tok*
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Toktuk thought this was the Ricky Martin Fan Club Forum and wrote:
It's been a year since my father died. I've been sitting around thinking about it. I'm home alone right now, I guess I just need somewhere to put my thoughts, where other people can see them. It helps me, although I don't know why...I left work a few hours early, I couldn't keep my mind on anything. I keep playing stuff over in my head...the call in the morning. Rushing to get to where he was. It was a day like today, kind of wet and dreary. And cold. Very cold.
I went to my Uncle's when I left work, I wanted to see if he wanted to ride with me to the cemetery. He was busy with work, and couldn't get away. I stayed around and watched TV for a little while, to take my mind off things. Then I drove up there by myself.
Someone had been there before me, I think it was my step-mom and step-sister. They left a dozen roses on his grave...Yellow Roses of Texas. I sat down and talked to him for awhile. My jeans got muddy, but I don't really mind. I miss him...
Anyway, I'm just sitting here at home now, I have to go to class soon. I have a big test today, I just hope I can keep my mind on things. Maybe they'll let us go after the test and I won't have to stay long. I'm just not in the mood to deal with anything right now.
Okay, I feel better now. I just had to get my thoughts out somewhere...
-Tok
i still miss my dad now and then even though it'll be ten years since he died this October. there was never a funeral, he was cremated and thrown out to sea, so i guess i don't even have a grave to grieve over.
saddness isn't too bad any more, but it's still there.
