Sometimes I feel like that, like right now. I could murder my parents, who I love very much, in their sleep and not bat an eyelid until tomorrow. Do I need help? I think I may have multiple personalities. They're not mood swings, I'm like a completely different person from day to day.
You'll find no humour disclaimer in this thread, as I'm serious.
Best thing to do is to suppress these thoughts until they utterly explode, and you do something rash.
Er.. Or you could just express them to a psycologist. That'd work.
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Black Mage had this to say:
Hmm... Ever seek help?
No. I will not submit myself to being talked down to like a common lunatic. But I scare myself sometimes, so maybe I should. I dunno. =/
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Mortious Shadowstalker had this to say about Cuba:
No. I will not submit myself to being talked down to like a common lunatic. But I scare myself sometimes, so maybe I should. I dunno. =/
Um...if you have thoughts of murdering your parents maybe you ARE a common lunatic?
I mean, I'm no expert, but O_o.
Try and think of what would happen if you killed them. What would *YOUR* life be like? You'd be thrown in jail, or maybe get off on an insanity plea. Either way, I gather it'd be pretty crappy.
Whenever I contemplate Suicide, I think of what everyone would do without me in the world. What my sister would be like. How my mom would react. Always keeps me from doing it.
Ask yourself this: Despite what you feel, would you ever really do it?
If you say "No", then odds are it's just the emotionally-dead impulses some people get. I've had them many times, nobody's died yet. Deal with it as best you can, and I suggest you read up on it if you feel you need to.
If you say "Yes" or "Maybe", then do you really want to NOT get help?
For what it's worth, I think you're ok. It's something that some people feel from time to time, but never act on. When I feel that way, I just let it pass, ignoring it till I'm back to "normal".
I'm an asshole who works to get what he wants, then holds it over "inferior" people like a trophy.
I go INSANE when someone corrects me on something, as I'm sure some of you have noticed from time to time on this board.
I make enemies without even meaning, or wanting, to.
In short: I'm a crazy egotistical asshole, but damn it feels good to admit it.
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Suddar Williams wrote:
Someone give Mort his sedatives.
Yes. Please. I need them.
Er.. I just smiled.. and I have no idea why.
Anyway, I'm not looking for pity, I just wanted to get some things out in the open... and I feel a lot better now. Some impulses are still there.. they're always there.. but I feel better.
We all have our skelatons and problems... Yer not alone, and we're all here to help if you need a hearing ear or hand or any other appendage 
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quote:As Delphi said before you, everyone has thoughts of violence.. When I get stressed and my anger starts to seeth, I think of murdering a bunch of different individuals, whether I actually know them or not. (Stupid customers bug the hell out of me.)
Suddar Williams had this to say about Captain Planet:
Um...if you have thoughts of murdering your parents maybe you ARE a common lunatic?I mean, I'm no expert, but O_o.
And god...ESPECIALLY your parents. My parents may piss me off sometimes, my grandmother even more, but I wouldn't have any thoughts of KILLING them...
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Mortious Shadowstalker had this to say about Captain Planet:
I have an insanely huge superiority complex...
Out of curiosity, does admitting that contradict itself? [ 01-01-2002: Message edited by: Tegadil ]
I do have a superiority complex, as well. If yours is like mine, you probably have one because you are superior. In a certain aspect, at least...nothing wrong with feeling superior, but you might wanna watch it as to how you express it.
As for the violent thoughts...I have 'em too. They scare me as well, because I'm actually quite capable of doing the deed. It's quite frightening at times.
I advised you get some help on that one (I'm going to). Because that kind of thing has potential to hurt people, and it's best if that doesn't come out.
Hope this helps 
How to help Mort feel better....hmm, wanna throw me out the window? I promise not to get mad this time.
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We were all impressed when Mortious Shadowstalker wrote:
No. I will not submit myself to being talked down to like a common lunatic. But I scare myself sometimes, so maybe I should. I dunno. =/
If you scare yourself, I can pretty much guarantee that you're sane. It's if you aren't scared of it that you should start to worry.
Examine that feeling of superiority. Know it really, really well. Be able to put it into your eyes at a moment's notice, it works wonders for backing off assholes in bars. There's just something about 'I could kill you and the only thing that would bother me would be getting your blood out from under my fingernails' staring out of someone's eyes to back another person down.
As long as you can control it, that feeling is a good thing. Own it any way you can... if it requires professional help, get it. Just be prepared to spend the rest of your life as someone else...
*hugs Mort*
I think most people think of violence some time in thier life. I don't know you very well yet. I don't know anyone on this board yet cept INT. Anyways, despite my lack of knowing you I think that wanting to kill your parents is a serious thing. Have you planned HOW you would kill them? Or anything like that? If you have please call someone who can help right now.
Also with multiple personalities you might want to keep a journal for yourself. Not for anyone else. But something you can use as a tool to keep some sort of control in your life. Or seperate journals for each personality so they have some way to express themselves with out having to worry about anyone else.
No matter what you actually do, remember that you are not the first person to feel like you do. And there are people who are educated to help you. In fact you might say that they care enough to make it thier career.
Best that can happen is that you get the help you need.
Good luck.
*HUGS*
...I know that I AM Zephyer...but, I'm like another person within the person that I am...if you follow.
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Genericgirl had this to say:
Have you planned HOW you would kill them?
Yes. I even planned what I'd spend the insurance money on.. =/
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And I was all like 'Oh yeah?' and Mortious Shadowstalker was all like:
Yes. I even planned what I'd spend the insurance money on.. =/
Seriously, get help.
Last shrink I talked to said that at times I was delusional, but 'no real harm to others'. I thought about things like what you said. Off someone, how to hide the corpse, how I would get to them, construct an alabi, everything. However my 'normal' state would kick in and that damned ethics thingy would stop me. I still know what right and wrong are..... if that ever slips, I'm screwed.
Hold on Mort. It's not as bad as you think, just make sure you THINK before you act.
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Check out the big brain on Mortious Shadowstalker!
Yes. I even planned what I'd spend the insurance money on.. =/
Note to the 'mundanes' on the list:
Almost anyone who's spent time in a roleplaying environment has done this... it's right up there with 'How many ways could I kill or incapacitate you with my bra' (~12) and 'How to take over the world in three easy steps' (pointless, who would want it?)
Planning random acts of insanity is normal, especially for intelligent people without a good outlet for that intelligence and a severe sense of 'I have to deal with these morons why?' It's especially difficult when the morons in question are actually people you like. Planning a possible murder takes the place of actually causing them harm.
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Mortious Shadowstalker had this to say about John Romero:
Sometimes I feel like that, like right now.
We should start a club.
vent your anger write draw fucking carve wooden horses
